monday

it is gonna end of year 2009. frankly speaking, i have strong feeling on it. as you know, i am 19 now. i will be 20 very soon. hey~ my age has to start with 2 something instead of 1 something. it is kinda terrible you know! argh~ @.@

someone is leaving tawau soon. i am gonna miss you much! please do take care and keep your promise okay? otherwise, i will be very very mad. haha....

sorry

i have something to say now! frankly speaking, i am sad to know that. i may face same problems as well. i knew something accidentally. i am so sorry. i don't know what else i can do anymore, just praying for the one who is related. jia you jia you!

btw, i wanna watch poker king!! i don't know la. din bring me go, go with friends war. sad la!!! =(

i don't wanna be the first

i don't wanna be the first to know first to do first to say~ this kind of feeling is just killing me! i wonder what else i can do. kindly lemme know, okay? i pretend to be tough be strong be nothing else being happened. i need support! ~!@#$%^&*()_+...................

okay! stop grumbling! it is time to back to real life. i am not happy in fact.

friday

sometimes it is good not to be too into. once you're too into, you're gonna suffer! haha... what am i talking at? who cares?! happy holiday to every curtin students~

btw, halo siaunee's sister! nice to meet you~ hope that you can enjoy your miri trip =)

end of my first sem =)

YES!!!! finals are just over~ end of my first year first sem! this should be celebrated right? so we held a little party in my room. just four of us~ those who attended should know who you're. photos will be uploaded very soon i guess because photos are not with me now~ =) guys and girls, i enjoy being with you! no regret having you as my friends~ you guys are just so............... funny!

btw, i am gonna back to my home sweet home!! tawau, i am coming~ wait for me. don't go too far muakssssssssssssssssssssssssss~

想!

今天我想了很多很多......... 如果当初............. 自相矛盾!
原来我一直都在掩饰我的伤口.....................
我需要时间去建立.................

lucky!!!

we're lucky enough compared to others! i mean what i saw just now. it is really... really... really... sad to see that. i saw 1 guy and probably 1 lady look for something in dustbin in front of my house. hey, you guys didn't read anything wrong. it is DUSTBIN! i accidentally saw this scene on my balcony. omg~ making me feel guilty. i was grumbling just now. i just need to do revision and sit for my final exam only. then what about them? maybe they wanna be like us, but they don't have the chance. is it sad to know that?

hey guys, stop grumbling on what you don't have but start appreciating what you have with you.

^.^

thank you daddy mummy! =)
you've done more than what others would do
i appreciate
and
i know what i'd do for you in return
i love you~

friday

lemme take a rest for few minutes~ take a deep breath and RUN!

i love you~

you are definitely my motivation! i love you~

sunday

"be the good one not be the best one"
i should always bear in mind that
i put it in my mind
i put it in my heart
just trying to avoid from being greedy
when you request more
you're gonna sacrifice more

brand new day~

well, i have posted the photos, symbolizing something's gonna change~ today is my brand new day! i should stop thinking that i am suffering. actually it is not that terrible. i should enjoy the process instead of waiting for the result. just try my very best~ jiayou jiayou!!!

36++ days to go~ tawau, i am coming!!!! yea~ i am DESPERATE for it.

tiring thursday

i am just tired. i need enough rest, seriously. it is quite difficult to maintain what i am having now. i do appreciate what i own but i find it difficult to maintain it. it is not that easy as i think. i need to stop a while instead of walking non-stop. it is just killing me~ i wish to be an ordinary girl. sometimes, it is nice to see but there is pain inside. who can understand me? i wish to know~ well, back to my life and stop grumbling!

durian day~

thanks to joanne and her nice kk friends!!! because of them, i had the chance of tasting DURIAN. haha~ although the durians didn't taste as tasty as in tawau, this was my first time sharing durians with friends in miri. 5 friends from kk and i am the only one from tawau~ nice nice nice!!! wish to have the second chance~

btw, have you ever seen this small durian before??? i mean the durian in my photo posted above. i am wondering how much it is......

a song~

a song accidentally came into my attention. an old song! in fact, this song is not considered as old. it was quite hot 4 or 5 years ago. lots of memories came into my mind all of sudden. something bad something good something sweet something sour something weird... just like rojak, mixing all kinds of feelings with it. if not because of this song, i won't think of these. all are doing good now, i guess.

thursday

actually it is nothing to jealous about. i can't get or achieve anything i wish to own. it is sad to say that but it is true. satisfy with what i am having now~ it is pretty much enough compared to others. it is sunny day. it seems like giving me hints or perhaps letting me know that it is all over again???

by the way, happy one and a half year darling =) we are gonna meet very soon! just bear with it for a short while. yeah yeah~

wondering...............

i am wondering what i am jealous about. this does not suit me, isn't this? this is totally different with my world. then what for i am hoping for that? stupid! kinda stupid! what i should do then? concentrate and focus what i am doing right now? or what? just kindly let me know.

for those who are reading this, you won't really get what i am trying to say i guess. as i am trying to make it blur, making it to be something nobody knows except for me myself. sorry for doing that~ this has annoyed me for quite a long time..............................................................

moon cake festival

thanks to fu wan ling. she brought me to join the activity tonight. it was fun but only something spoiled my mood was the Mr. Mosquito. omg~ they kept going near me. go away la!!! i don't like you! overall, tonight is considered as GOOD! better than staying alone in house. it is always good to be with friends, especially with someone who is "ngam key" with me. haha =)

you know, i miss you badly. 48days to go~ long way to go. how good if there are 4 days or 8 days left. =( =( =(

so-called uni life

i am not happy. i feel that i am just like a fool. idiot! i am trying to calm down my feelings but i can't control my tears. it is not that easy staying alone outside. no car no own house no parents nobody helps me when i need help. this kind of feeling is really bad! but what to do? this is my life! so-called uni life! how good if i have my own car own house and parents are with me. just try not to step on me today. i am gonna burst very soon. when i say it, i mean it!

twu

I miss my parents my bb and my home so so so so much!!! about 2 months to go~ just stand for it. I will be back very soon. I am counting for the day back to Tawau. I wanna have bat kut teh, soto, sak nyuk mian, dim sum, curry laksa and last but not least, delicious dishes from my mum =). mami..................

=(

i am wondering what to do and how to do. i don't know which one i should help. both are important to me. both are close to me. i don't want to hurt any one of them. i love them just like they love me~

i hope to back to previous stage, may i? at least we are close enough. =( i am not happy.

stress perhaps?

gimme some power! gimme some energy! you know, i have looked for the research on substitutes to retail stores for so long but what i get is irrelevant information. please tell me what to do how to do. i need advice!

i keep telling myself,"calm down, way! you can make it! it is not a big deal and it is just an assignment. relax girl!". it doesn't work at all. or maybe i am too stress perhaps.

okay~ it is time to work hard again. bless me wish me good luck.... =(

good man vs childish man

okay~ i stand for you!!! 40bucks i paid for it. i gave you. i didn't really mind that! omg~ i first time came across this kind of man who is around 30++ years old. man should be mature right? how come he acted like a kid spoke like a kid? totally no manners! hey, c'mon~ this is impolite don't you know that? never mind.

however, on the same day, i met a kind and good "tauke". i respect him! still the same, he is around 30++ years old but he is polite. this is a real man who knows how to respect others even though i am younger than him. the childish man, please learn from this man la! this good "tauke" supposes to deserve something better in the future. his business will be better because of his good attitude.

saturday

well, it has been ages that i don't update my blog. like about one week? it doesn't matter. this is where i express my feeling only. i just finished all mid term tests. i am free of tests at this moment but very soon i am flooded with assignments. 4 more assignments to go! hey, c'mon~ is this called relaxing uni life? i don't ever think so. =.=

there is tuition free week after the following week. i am not going to my hometown because it's quite troublesome. goodbye to my housemates, Siaunee and Yan xing! last but not least, goodbye to my girl, Joanne! haha... i know she won't read my blog. but it is okay =) enjoy your holiday, girls!!

interesting!!!!

have you ever seen this tiny "HL Low Fat Milk"? you can see the difference between the milk and my bottle in the first photo. it is so cute! i first time come across this. thanks Siaunee! she bought it for me this morning. thanks! and i am drinking it now =)

good family and friends

although there is something unhappy happened, i am considered as lucky compared to others! i meet a lot of friends in miri but mostly good friends. what does "good friends" mean? in my dictionary, "good friends" means that those who are willing to lend you a hand when you are in hot soup or even understanding you in all circumstances. for example, buying me cheese tarts (she knows i like it so much!), da bao dinner or lunch for me(when they know i am alone at home), asking me out for meal instead of leaving me alone(because they know i hate to be alone! ^^), helping me to carry this and that, sharing important notes with me......... those are my good friends! i am happy to meet you all =)

i wont forget him as well when i just came to miri. he takes good care of me! when i tell him that i haven't taken my dinner, he will try his best to da bao for me. he is my gor gor. so, in return, i be his cleaner. i know that no matter whatever situatiaon i am in, my family will always be with me and support me. they accept whoever i am! so, love your family~

last but not least, thank you very much!!!!!

thursday

i promise myself and bb that i will be happy. i dont want my mood to be influenced easily. i should know that "happy-go-lucky". somemore, that is not a big deal that can really affect me much. what for i am not happy because of tiny matter? compared with others, i am lucky enough! stand up and smile =) have a nice day, girl as well as to those who are reading my blog. have a nice day all!!!

i am sorry

i am sorry. i am trying to get used to this. i am not that tough to accept everything in one short. gimme some time please~

monday

these are what i am gonna do when i am bored. finally, management assignment is done! thanks to those who lent me a hand. =) this does not mean that my job has been done completely. i have 4 tests and 1 more assignment to rush. =.= who say first year of degree is very relaxing? who say de? i find it totally wrong. my dear, fu wan ling also finds it same way with what i think. what else can i do? ................

i can sense that something has changed. if the changes are good, i do not really mind it. however, what makes it worse is the changes are BAD! i cannot foresee any benefit under this.

monday

i am so sorry for not accompanying you recently. mum, i am sorry. bb, i am sorry. i have 2 assignments to rush. i am racing with time and i don't have much time left! sorry for being selfish and thanks for your understanding.

take care my dear~ =)

wednesday

please bless her! she is such a kind lady and she should deserve more than what she is having now.
she will no longer suffer anymore. she will be free of it. take care~

dear lady, we love you and we miss you~

mummy happy bday =)

today is my mum's bday as well. i am sharing same bday with her. it sounds cool, right? haha...

mummy, happy birthday!! =) thanks for teaching me, loving me, caring me and accepting whoever i am. i love you mum! wish you stay healthy and happy always =)

once again, happy bday and i love you!!


love from,
your daughter way way ^^

my bday =)

today is my birthday!! =)

firstly, thanks to parents, gor gor and all my friends for sending bday wishes for me via msn, sms, facebook or face to face. thank you very much!

thanks for acc me going town, wendy fu wan ling. =) we enjoyed it, didn't we?

thanks for the surprising dinner as well as the bday cake for me 2days before my bday. i love choco cake! the dinner tasted so nice! can i have it one more time? =) thanks to siaunee dana mongusal, chan yan xing, and the guys. you know who i refer to! haha=)

and then, thanks to miss ivy chai for her secret recipe cake. wow... i love it!!! haha...

thanks to miss chan yan xing for her apple donut, which is the mango flavor. thanks!!!

once again, wendy fu wan ling gave me my fav. biscuit, panda biscuit. thank you dear!!!! how you know i love it so much? thank you.... =)

last but not least, thanks to my sweet bb. he has acc me throughout the night. although he is not around with me, i still can feel warmness from him. thanks bb, muakssssssssssssss =)

sunday

before i start writing my blog, i have something to say. HEY FRIENDS, THANK YOU VERY MUCH! I DID APPRECIATE WHAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME LAST NIGHT! IT IS JUST MEMORABLE FOR ME! =) i thought i would be alone for my b'day initially. i just feel lucky to have you guys as my friends~

okay~back to origin! i went to Bintang Mall with wendy fu yesterday. we spent quite a lot, but all our spending was on essential stuffs lo. we did not cin cai squander money de lo. we are good girls one!!! haha.... =)

1 more day to go~!!!!!

saturday

today is saturday. it is a relaxing saturday. the law test has been postponed. how good it is! haha... the exam will be held after tuition free week. so i will be going to town today to buy sun block. hey, i need that so much! i dont want to be "black". the sun in miri is so big lo. i am trying.... trying.... trying... to get used to it. gimme some time okay?

for certain matter, i am sad to know that. i hope she will be okay, perhaps not suffering too much. except praying, what else can i do? i can do nothing at all!! STUPID! for those who i care the most, please take GOOD care of yourself. i hope each and everyone of you will be okay always.

today is 15th of august. 2more days to go...

tuesday

i just finished my law test. i'm free but only for a while. next tuesday i will be having my law test on topic 2 and 3 again. i'm gonna work harder on it because more questions will be out. scare scare er!!! tonight is cooking night. once again, i cook for my housemates. in fact, i enjoy cooking. girls need to learn cooking, don't we? it is just a simple dinner but it is enough for me.

6more days to go!!! this is my secret! i dont want to let you guys know ar. =)

jia you!!!!

i want something that is good for you and for me but just not only for me. if there is the case, i rather dont want this. i hope you'll be fine very soon. i will be there for you always whenever you need me although i know i can't provide you any assistance. jia you ya~ you know how i feel on this, right? =)

sunday

it is the time to upload new blog. sometimes i dont know what i should write. perhaps i just want to be a bit more mysterious. =) i will be having my business law test next tuesday. little information is given yet lots of questions are out. i'm trying to work hard on it since it is my first test in curtin. i hope that it is a good start for me. bless me bless me bless me!!!

tomorrow may be scary for me. my a level result is released tomorrow. i am nervous because i know that i didn't do well in the exams. if i look down or remain silent tomorrow, please stand for me okay? =)

8 more days to go... wahaha!!!

....

i have no lesson today but it doesn't mean that i can rest well. due to business law test on next tuesday, i forced myself to do revision although my concentration was not on the book. too many to do yet too little time given! =( i miss my study room in hometown. it's just nice for me!

10more days! i will be alone that moment, i guess. whatever la! be happy girl~ =)

one day.....

sometimes you treat others well, but others may not treat you in the same way you do. it's just for certain cases only, perhaps. by the way, i'm still learning to adapt. when you're staying outside, you need to be independent or to be more precise, learning to be alone. this is what i should learn. previously, i used to be in a group of friends or sometimes in a group of two. but now, i'm not belonging to any group. maybe much time has to be given to me to join a new group. sad to say that =(



here comes to the photos taken in my house yesterday

grouping

i have the same feeling with my kk friend too. when there's a group, it is difficult to squeeze new member. i can feel the toughness but i get used to it, i guess. it sounds so sour, right? (translate to mandarin please!) i think i can overcome it. or else just form another new group. it's not really that serious. i still can make it!

good luck for me and my kk friend!

mixed feeling

day off today! =) i slept until 10 smtg or merely 11 la. enjoy! because i was tired edi. i had lessons for so many hours. my housemate, yan xing invited me to town. i wanted to go initially but at the end i still chose to stay in my home. and then i had my dinner with my another housemate, siaunee. it sounds so boring for my whole day, right? but i dont mind. today is my day to rest. i follow what i want, okay?

on the other hand, i received some bad news. obviously, i'm not happy with it. =( i mean it okay? it doesn't sound good to anyone of us. i hope that people related will be fine soon, sincerely. please, just please!!!

what a day!?

today i'm feeling bad too. perhaps i haven't adapted to the life well. well, whenever i'm not happy, you're always be there with me. you make me touch and cheer me up always! once again, i'm not happy. and now, you're there for me again. you know i'm weak inside although i look strong outside. and you're just there for me. thank you bb =)

plus, home sick =( i miss my dad my mum and my home. may i refuse to learn to be independent? can i? just feel tired of doing these on my own. tired tired and still, tired! i wanna back home. i wanna see my parents i wanna see my bb. missing you all~ =(

=(

i'm not happy today and i feel like crying. today is the starting of my lesson but i haven't done all my stuffs yet such as printing notes, finding second hand books or sets of photocopy. i'm so tired of these. can anyone help me? i hate this kind of stupid life! ~!@#$%^&*()_+ really stupid!!!

i thought uni life should be happy. why is mine so terrible? really...........................dont know how to describe more about my feelings.

=)

once again, i skipped the orientation today. i woke up around 9something or perhaps 10 something. my housemate will be reaching here by today. =) since i had nothing to do, i started cleaning my room. i want my room to be clean always! i don't allow any dirt in my room, hopefully. i took about 1 hour!? i guess. whatever la! as long as my room is clean and smelling good(i sprayed the apple air freshener) did i spell wrong anything?

=) =) =) =) =) =) =) =)

. . .

I'm not happy. because of what? I don't really know.
just bear in mind that don't think too much.
i told myself for thousand times. . .

day 3

today is day 3 of orientation. wah...................... it's kinda boring! after the first 2 days, i start to skip it. i know that you guys have prepared it for a long time but sorry. i cant control myself! :)
i've been here for about 6days not more than a week. i've adapted to the environment, i guess. the life is simple here. what i do not get used to is the house work. i need to do it on myself. oh my goodness! haha... trying to learn it frm now lo. what else can i do?

yet, i still miss my parents a lot. my mum makes a call with me almost everyday, so does my bb. haha... i miss them so so so much. :)

天空

昨晚的我睡不着
我一直望着天空
想看看斗湖的天空和美里的天空有什么不同
如果以肉眼看
这当然没有什么不同
也还是蓝天白云
如果用心去体会
这就不同了
斗湖的天空充满着家人的关怀与温暖
美里的天空则充满着挑战
如果斗湖的天空刮起大风下着雷雨
家人会帮我关窗盖被
如果斗湖的天空很闷热
家人会煲凉茶给我喝
这就是和美里的天空不同的地方
我还是喜欢这里....

3days left...

i've a lot to say and i've a lot to miss. i'm gonna start my new life very soon. i don't really worry much as everything's been settled like time table, student id, room and friends. thanks to my family, my bb and my dear Eunice. haha :) they've helped me a lot indeed!

although i miss them much, life still goes on and i've to go! take care everyone~

;'(

i feel gloomy! just 19days left! i miss my mama, my dad, my bb, my home and everything here. haizzz.... i've tried to spend most of the time with them, i do appreciate every moment from now.
mama, i love you
daddy, i love you
bb, i love you
home, i love you.
you're always in my heart.... ;'(

1st day of holiday

it's only first day of holiday but i start feeling bored. why huh? about one month later, i'll be leaving here to miri for my further studies. this means i've to leave my sweet home to be alone over there. except her, i dont think there's anyone going there. i mean those in commerce la. so, i've to start all over again. mama said i need to be independent and avoid over-relying my gor gor. but can i? until now, all my stuff has been well prepared by my family instead of preparing myself. now, i'm afraid!

day after exam

well, it's after 12. it's the day after my cambridge exam. quite relaxing now in fact! i spent almost all the time on watching tv & you tube. it's time for me to relax and rest enough. i've been working hard on my revision. this'd be the reward for me, isn't this? now it's 1222am. yet, i'm not sleepy. how come? but who cares? i'm free from revision now. hehe.......

恐怖

今天发生的事情
真的让我完全没有信心
对充满期望的未来很没有信心
也让我觉得很恐怖
我不知道应该要如何面对
这完全变了另外一个样
我应该怎么办?

停止

有些事情
真的不得我不放弃
这一切的胡思乱想必须停止
不必要的事情应该停止
我会慢慢忘记这些不该存在的事情

stupid!

i don't know why my feeling is a bit gloomy today
perhaps i'm too tired or what
i'll try to avoid something that is unnecessary to me
for example
an unachievable target!
setting too high for myself
kinda stupid!

HOT

the sun is so big
the weather is so hot
it makes me feel hot
HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT!!!

执着......介意.....

我是否执着我不应该执着的东西?
我是否介意我不应该介意的东西?
有人提醒了我
其实有这一切
都已经足够了
不是吗?

跌倒了

每个人都有自己的发泄空间
而我的发泄空间就在我心里
起初以为我会被明白
但是
一次次证明了
一次次失望了
小孩子跌倒了
他的伤口需要时间痊愈
而我跌倒了很多次...

加油吧

最近真的觉得很忙
是我自己找事情忙还是什么
我也不清楚
只觉得很想把每样事情都做好
都能尽我能力去完成
也许这就形成我的压力
好想好想过完这一切考试
可以吗?
可是过完这一切的考试
也意味着我要离开我待了十几年的家
很多不舍
尤其是我的家人和我的他
他们给我很多支持很多帮助
当我最需要他们的时候
这就是家庭的温暖吧!
诉完苦了
还是要回到现实了
加油吧郑爱薇

新年

今天的心情
有点闷闷的
有点失落感
也许是因为新年的假期快要结束了
很快地
又要恢复正常
上课上课上课考试考试考试
我似乎不是很享受这样的生活
很累!!!!!!!!!
我要多多多多多多多假期
我不要放假了还要做功课的假期哦!!!!!!!!!!!!!
今天经济不景气
舞狮也少了很多
很少东东锵了!这是我的全家福. 我很喜欢! 因为拍到我很美丽. 嘻嘻!
新年快乐!!!!!!

新年快乐^^

今天是2009年的第一天
我希望我的家人和他的家人
事事顺利
得心应手
身体健康
生意兴隆
开开心心
而我希望我的朋友们
开开心心
学业进步
因为今年我们又要大考了!!!
加油加油~
过了这大考
这也代表我要离开这里了
真的不舍得
上一年我很开心
这一年我希望会更好!
新年快乐^^