everything is nothing

I am so unhappy, experiencing something bad. Now then I know I am nothing. What I've contributed is nothing. What I've concerned on is nothing. What I've cared for is nothing. Everything is nothing. Some may say only truth is revealed when you're in anger. Initially I thought it was just ridiculous but now it's true. You won't find it true unless you experience yourself. Because of the anger in you, you've the gut to reveal everything. Otherwise, you don't even dare to say something out.

just stop it

I would like to stop everything when it exceeds its limit. now, it has exceeded the limit which I can afford. so, I should stop it now. please keep this in mind and keep my promise. I won't let it happen again. NEVER! this isn't belonging to me anymore. that's why I need to exit before the limit is exceeded.

revision~

I will be having my final exam 10 days later. so what do you expect me to do now? revision of course. don't ever ask me this stupid question please! haha... besides books, there are still books. I am gonna be book worm soon. I mean only for this critical period. after the exam, don't ask me something related to the books. I forget it right after that paper. I kept grumbling for the past few days. why are these units become much tougher compared to last sem? why are there still lots of definition to be memorized? why are there still lots of theories to be understood? why? why? why? hey girl, it is just first year only. you don't even reach final year yet. it is just beginning only. try to take pressure as dessert. I mean try to take it as motivation or perhaps challenge.

when I am so depressed, I look at 2 little things on my table - 1. notes from my parents ( they attached a little note for me in the parcel) 2. erik the yellow ( m & m from a guy ). I know they will be my side always although they are busy sometimes. they contribute a lot especially for my parents - sending car for us, buying air ticket when I wish to be home regardless of air ticket fees, gimme a call and giving me support when I need them much ( esp my dad. I know he purposely called me early in the morning right before I had my shell interview. but the interview was failed! haha :p).

okay~ back to origin. stop grumbling! revision isn't that terrible. maybe I should change my perception on it. I do my revision isn't for final exam. It is for gaining additional info. maybe I feel better if thinking in this manner : ) girl, revision mode ON!