love!!!!!!! : )

last night I had a night mare which was so ridiculous. it is impossible to happen what! I mean it is not possible to happen at this current stage. I should just treat this as funny dream instead. er~ kind of adventurous dream.

by the way, I realize I need them more than I can imagine. home is always the best for me! home refers to a house with family love. a house without family love isn't considered as home. i have home and i know my home is always there for me. so, they'll be my motivation forever. I love papa I love mama I love gor gor and I love you~ : )

thank you!

thanks for staying patience with me, dear. you know i was feeling bad yesterday and you tried to be with me all the time. as we have promised earlier, we tried to compromise each other and we did it. we didn't quarrel at all even though sometimes we had different opinions on certain matters. i see your changes and i feel my changes. it's so sweet and warm~ thank you!

btw, one more month to struggle. i will be set free afterward. hurray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mama, wait for me~ papa, wait for me~ kuhara indah, wait for me~ i will be back very very very soon! just about one month later, i will be there NOT here! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ : )

dear

frankly speaking, i don't feel good today. it is not my day! I had a wonderful and sweet week with him and now everything has to back to square one. you know, all memories are still fresh in my mind as if everything's just happened in a moment ago. I am telling myself that I am not missing him. but................................................ it is a stupid way to get rid of loneliness. yea, i miss him. so what?! it is time to stop these and back to assignmentsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss~


dear, you know i am missing you and i know you are too~

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loneliness is torturing me now. i don't know why and i don't know what's going on. you know, i just can't stand for every single lonely moment. it makes me feel terrible. i need to rush my assignments but i just don't feel like doing the assignments. why? don't ask me! even me myself don't know why. .....................................................................= (

cheer up me myself~

it is time to face the truth although i am not willing to do so~ it is time for me to learn from mistake. it is time for me to learn from the past. it is time for me to gain additional experience. in fact, i am not that smart as i thought. it was just an illusion! i didn't realise it was an illusion until i failed my assignment. i deserved it what! this is the lesson for me not being too confident. i fell terribly and it hurts man! stop my stupid thinking stop my stupid action. i am not the top of the world. so, it is no need to do everything in a perfect way. btw, it is not the end of the world. it isn't bad matter what! at least i learn something. i learn to be humble i learn to be honest to my standard i learn not to expect too much. the most expected will come when you expect the least. cheer up girl~

talking to myself~

girl, you should know that not everyone is able to take it. this may be good for you but this doesn't mean it is good for others too. stop being selfish! stop behaving in that way! you desire to own it but you just can't make it. get it? the more you desire to get it, the more you are suffered. so, just stop it and think twice. is it worth? stop it please~

no boring pls!

I can't let this happen in my uni life! oh my goodness! my current uni life is just all about studies studies studies and no anything else. it is so boring you know? i can't stand for it anymore. most of my friends prefer staying at home. c'mon~ let's join activities or clubs! don't let our uni life so boring what!