lonely girl

I wish
I am tough enough.
I wish
I am free from loneliness.
But,
I am pretty sure that
I am weak enough
and
I am always suffering of stupid loneliness.
This feeling
is sort of annoying
and it
keeps torturing me
from time to time
from day to day.
what else can I do?
I am sorry
for my stupidity
but
I just can't control myself.
why?
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