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i know
i realize
i understand
but why
i still worry
should i step forward
should i remain standing
should i?

彷徨

现在的我
真的很彷徨
很常有一种失落感
如果你问我
我的人生目标是什么
我真的答不出
就连我的志愿
我也不知道
听爸说
一个人一定要拥有自己的目标
为自己的目标而努力
才不会有所谓的失落感
那我这几年是为了什么而活
其实
很羡慕那些有志愿有目标的朋友
有的要做律师
有的要做医生
有的要做设计师
还有很多很多
我连以后大学要读些什么
我自己都拿不定主意
一年半后的我
就要一个人离开家里出去读书了
我应该怎么办?

误解

其实
人与人之间不只是存在着爱情
而人
不只是为了爱情而生存
世界那么大
感情只是占了一小部分
之间的误解依然存在
而我选择了不去解释
当信任不存在了
误解开始出现了
现在又再一次历史重演当初发生的误会
错
一次就够了
我很清楚什么应该做什么不应该做
答应过的事情
我一定会做到
既然不相信
说什么都没用

wondering

well
i'm wondering something
why still i care about it?
i'm so stupid indeed
thinking that everything is fine enough
who knows?
it still likes a needle
stinging in my heart
when will it be pulled out?
i dont know...

12th of Jan

there is opening ceremony today
so around 10 i have already headed home
before home
i had some refreshments
i love one of them
it tasted so sweet!!
around 11 i went out again
buying some "pearl tea" for those friends in s3
sorry for those whom i didn't buy for them
i didn't bring much money as well
actually i quite miss them
especially jill, cha, jing jing, ah chu, tian tian those
i had lots of good memories with all of them before
after that
i had brunch with my best buddy since primary, doris
she's going to Germany soon
for sure
i'll miss her much!!!
well
those're what i did this morning.

a song

recently
i fall in love with a song
even setting this as my ring tone
the name of the song is " fireflies" by Noella Choi
actually i dont really know about the lyrics
but i love its melody
it feels like dancing...

the answer

what i do mind
is no longer this one anymore
but another one now
what causes this change?
i'm asking myself once and once
still i cant find any answer yet.

finally

finally
i realize
it has never been changed.
it's still there.
i'm teasing myself for being so "blur".
ha...
whatever!
it's no longer important.