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loneliness is torturing me now. i don't know why and i don't know what's going on. you know, i just can't stand for every single lonely moment. it makes me feel terrible. i need to rush my assignments but i just don't feel like doing the assignments. why? don't ask me! even me myself don't know why. .....................................................................= (

cheer up me myself~

it is time to face the truth although i am not willing to do so~ it is time for me to learn from mistake. it is time for me to learn from the past. it is time for me to gain additional experience. in fact, i am not that smart as i thought. it was just an illusion! i didn't realise it was an illusion until i failed my assignment. i deserved it what! this is the lesson for me not being too confident. i fell terribly and it hurts man! stop my stupid thinking stop my stupid action. i am not the top of the world. so, it is no need to do everything in a perfect way. btw, it is not the end of the world. it isn't bad matter what! at least i learn something. i learn to be humble i learn to be honest to my standard i learn not to expect too much. the most expected will come when you expect the least. cheer up girl~

talking to myself~

girl, you should know that not everyone is able to take it. this may be good for you but this doesn't mean it is good for others too. stop being selfish! stop behaving in that way! you desire to own it but you just can't make it. get it? the more you desire to get it, the more you are suffered. so, just stop it and think twice. is it worth? stop it please~

no boring pls!

I can't let this happen in my uni life! oh my goodness! my current uni life is just all about studies studies studies and no anything else. it is so boring you know? i can't stand for it anymore. most of my friends prefer staying at home. c'mon~ let's join activities or clubs! don't let our uni life so boring what!

thank you girls!!!

well... i am very happy since yesterday as the debate was over FINALLY! we prepared it 3 weeks before the debate. we're afraid of not enough preparation. but somehow, on that day, it was out of my expectation. 3 of us did quite well. i mean it's totally better than what i imagined! GOOD JOB GIRLS! you know, i can feel that we're totally in A team. i don't know how much we're gonna get for this presentation but i am already satisfied with our performance. THANK YOU GIRLS! =)

i am talking to myself

it serves no point to be the perfect one and it is impossible to be that! i am not superman. i just can't do everything in perfect way. i've tried to achieve the best. i found out that it's just so tiring to do so. think of parents! they wanna me be a happy uni student instead of being the best student. stop giving yourself pressure! certain level of stress is essential to motivate you but too much pressure is gonna drive you crazy. just try your very best. i know parents won't put the blame on me if i can't make it. they just wanna me be happy =)

sorry yet thank you

i am trying hard to hide it well but i just can't make it. i am so sorry for making some of my friends worry about me so much. some has realized about the differences. i hope no one will make notice of that anymore. please don't! even you do, can you try to act as if you don't know? thank you very much! i just don't want to talk much on it.

time heals everything. i hope it works in my case! get up and smile =)